“It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living…”

Written by Orion Mountain Dreamer, Indian Elder

“It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living
I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.
It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love,
for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon.
I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow,
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals
or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain!
I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own,
if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn’t interest me if the story you’re telling me is true.
I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself,
if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.
I want to know if you can be faithful and therefore be trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty even when its not pretty every day, and if you can source your life from God’s presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine,
and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes!”
It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done for the children.
It doesn’t interest me who you are, how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand in the center of the Fire with me
and not shrink back.
It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself, and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.”

Orion says: “I am a teacher and writer living in Toronto with my two teenage sons.   While my family history includes stories of Scottish, German and Native American descent, I am a Canadian woman, and not an “Indian elder” as has sometimes been reported, being neither old enough nor wise enough to claim the status of “elder” for any people.  I have had the privilege of studying with and learning from the wisdom of Native American elders who gave  me the medicine name, Mountain Dreamer.

My first book, Confessions of a Spiritual Thrillseeker is currently out of print.  I am now working on a book entitled  The Invitation, expanding on the thoughts and teachings held within this smaller piece.   Dreams of Desire is a small collection of poetry only available through Mountain Dreaming.”

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